Shame

Is it because that she is Virgo? She easily feel shamed since she was born.

For her, shame is a kind of smell.
Sometimes it's the smell mixed with blood and pain, it's easy to sense her own smell while she is the period, this smell is so strong that can not be ignored, even if she uses lots of perfume and try to hide it. The clue of expectation about mating and procreation makes her face blush.
Sometimes, it's the smell mixed with saliva and hug, she can sense this while she meets her ex-es, a fading love with some fragment memories of the past intimacy, she suddenly blushes while she aware of this.


Different from most people feel happy about being accomplished, she always be in the unreal dizziness while she senses the hypocritical smell of the accomplishment, she feels in a loss and can not touch the ground, then her face turns red in a dizziness. Another shame is more direct and with anger, no, maybe u should call it "Humiliation", that only happens while she feel being misunderstood, at this moment, she will show her proud and persistent, just like the Jean d'Arc, but just her unhidden blush will leak out her true feeling, Shame.


She will feel shame while she senses the inappropriate smell , the noisiness, the unfitting wardrobes, undignified sights, the physical contacts without the awareness of personal space, those were fermented from behaviors lack of cultivation, all of these will make her feel the shame, just because she is aware of a fact, these people are living in the same place with her. And in some workplaces, she will sense the smell of mistrust, some premeditation of competitor's attacks, some gossips with intention, some interests of the rake-off, some intrigues, she just penetrates all these but feels her inability, then she feels shame.


Then, she feel a new style of shame comes from her body, while she's lying in his arms, a feeling with too much happiness that she can not afford, an uncertainty of facing the love prospects of her own, make her hide her blushing face into his arms, deeper and deeper.